my parents decided randomly today that they would pick me up from school and go eat at blue fin… which is like the… 2nd happiest place in the world hahaha.. for me at least.

my mom started getting sad though as we were slowly finishing our meal. when i asked what was wrong she told me that shes already dreading dropping me off at school. i was first confused and surprised at the same time. and then i realized that shes never in a good mood when she has to go drop me off and she ALWAYS drags either my brother or sister to come with her when she drops me off. i always assumed that it was cause the drive back home from dropping me off is boring but she told me that she gets really lonely and sad when i leave.

rewind back to like 5 years ago. i came back from cali after a conference and (of course) i got sick from all the traveling. as i lay in my bed one night i heard my dad come into my room. i dont know why but i just pretended to be asleep. he came in silently, put his hand on my head and began to pray for me. that i would feel better. i then heard him ask God that he wished he was sick instead of me because he couldnt stand me being in pain.

fast forward back to now. i am so ungrateful for my parents. like all the time. there are times when i think my mom doesnt love me anymore (lol, jealousy i guess?). but i realize that her love has only been growing for me. 

honestly, my parents are the best and i should be thankful for them. so very very very thankful.

thank you parents for showering me with this undeserved love.

thank you for showing me unconditional love.

“thank you for helping me understand God’s love for me.”

whatshouldwecallme:

whatshouldwecallme:

43:33 minutes of greatness.

i sit here crying. i am speechless.

43 minutes of thinking “well done shonda”

:33 minutes of “i knew it was too good to be true”